A BIG LIFE CHANGE
you may or may not have noticed i’ve been a little quiet lately. some people have noticed my energy has shifted some. i’ve been going through some personal issues that i haven’t really felt comfortable to share in this space until now.
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last month, i decided to end my almost 6 year relationship. this was a decision that was extremely difficult to make and i’ve been taking some time to reflect on it. i’ve signed the lease into my name only and it’s surreal. arian is such an amazing person and i am so lucky to have had him in my life. i am SO thankful that we are going on our new paths while remaining really friendly, loving, and mature with each other. most of my relationships in the past ended and we never spoke again, but this one feels very different. very grown up and compassionate. i met arian when i was in my early 20’s, working next to him at my first 9-5 job at a headphone company. those were very formative years of our lives, and sometimes people just don’t change in the same direction. this was a very scary move for me, but i knew i had to explore this feeling i had in my heart. you never know if you might regret a decision like this later, or what will come of it. i cry as i write this post because it’s hard to share something that’s so personal and intense and i just hope it’s treated with loving thoughts. looking back, some of my favorite memories have been with arian. i truly care about him so much and want only the very best for him. life is going to be strange for a while. this is a big adjustment. but i know someday i will look back on this fork in the road and everything will be more clear. at least i hope so.
i questioned for a while whether to even share this at all. but this blog is a reflection of my life, it always has been, and it felt like the right thing to do.
i love you arian, thank you for truly being my best friend.
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