HIT THE RESET BUTTON
and just like that, it all starts over again. a new year and a reset mind that’s ready to jump back into the grind. i’ve never been a huge new year’s eve fan. i always forget to plan something, forget to buy a dress in time, or just don’t really care for the crowded drunk NYE scene. but somehow, no matter where i spend the last minute of the year, even if it’s in my friend’s living room in my pajamas, i get this special feeling when the clock strikes midnight. it always feels a little cinematic. i feel connected to arian and proud of the struggles we’ve gotten past. sure, we’re not perfect but relationships take work and we’re working at it. and it feels exciting to plan things to look forward to together. just for a minute, it feels like a new chance at something when the year starts over. it’s definitely a made-up feeling, it’s not real. january 1st is the same as april 23rd, but it doesn’t matter. it feels nice to write down what we hope to change in our lives, even if we don’t change at all.
i read this post that i wrote last january, when i was clearly not feeling ready for the new year’s hype. i can still relate to the words i wrote then, but i also feel in a very different head space this january. i took some time today to focus on what made me happy last year and wrote down a bunch of nonsense stream of consciousness ideas for this blog. none of them really make sense yet, but i am excited to watch them come to life over the next few weeks.
let’s shake things up this year, ok?
(push pop confetti available here)