NOT FEELING THIS SPARKLY
let me be honest with you today. i don’t feel the best. somehow the new year didn’t start off quite right for me. instead of feeling inspired and motivated, i have felt a lot of pressure and a little numb. i didn’t receive a package of good ideas on my doorstep on january 1st. (and how unrealistic to think i would?) the truth is, i need a little time. time to sleep in my own bed. time to feel creative. time with my friends to come up with ideas after a morning mimosa session. i think i might be having an emo moment because yesterday i even said out loud “what am i doing with my life?” i might as well put back on my black plastic bracelets from high school and start listening to death cab for cutie again.
arian went out of town for a day, so i am just here with my own thoughts and i already feel better. not that i love having him away, because i surely don’t. but it’s nice to just sit and think about why i’ve been feeling this way. (read this article about disconnecting that a friend sent me) i guess i just need to come to the realization that the new year actually means nothing if you don’t want it to. it’s not a timer that says you have to do better at midnight. you don’t have to start eating your broccoli and be mad at yourself if you haven’t started that yet (guilty)…and maybe you haven’t even thought about your goals this year and have been doing all the same bad habits as last year. (guilty) i think that’s just fine. we can be rebels together.
for those of you that can be like me, and have set totally ridiculous expectations for yourself…let’s just chill out a little bit. take a nap. take a walk. breathe a little. and let 2013 happen naturally.
PS. an adorable DLF reader just sent these two desktop downloads (from the philippines!) for you to dress your tech with. pick which 2013 version you’d like…
DOWNLOAD THE black & white confetti version HERE (1989)
click to DOWNLOAD the colorful 2013 version HERE! (2028)
(for those who would like to know, that sparkly dress is from free people)