WEEKEND THOUGHTS FOR YOU
it takes a while to figure yourself out, doesn’t it? i was talking with a friend today about when she felt like she came into her own. you know, that year when you felt like your style was consistent or when your taste evolved?
looking back, this is something i always struggled with. i was always a person who appreciated style and all things artistic…but i couldn’t really nail what my style actually was. the more i think about it, i guess i can pinpoint a certain year where things started making a little more sense for me. when i finally got to the point where i wasn’t looking at something and trying to copy it, instead i was just doin’ my own thing. i wasn’t saying to myself anymore, “am i boho? glam? girly? edgy? SERIOUSLY, WHO THE HECK AM I?”
in 2007 i gained a bunch of weight (remember this post on how i lost it?) i remember that year going through a lot of personal changes and feeling very lost. it was a really low time, and while i was picking up the pieces, i started this blog. i found so much enjoyment in it because it felt like i was discovering who i was finally. i was documenting what i liked and why i liked it. really studying what made me feel inspired.
it wasn’t an overnight shift or anything, but i would say around 2009 i felt like something had clicked. i knew where i wanted to be, i knew the people i looked up to, i knew what made my heart jump. and after that it just took practice and research. there’s really no short way of getting to that point.
i bring this up because i look through my pins sometimes and if feels a little emotional for me. which sounds totally cheesy. but it’s true. it feels like i figured myself out. what makes my brain tick. what i love. what i definitely don’t love. it doesn’t feel so all over the place now, and that’s a nice feeling.
i say this mostly to inspire you to find those things, and to encourage you to experiment. and to let you know it’s hard. but that’s okay. and who knows, maybe two years from now i will laugh at this post and say to myself ”oh geez, you thought you had it all figured out, didn’t you?”
what about you? what year did you feel like you had a consistent style that was your own?